
After staining several good sheets, bathrobes and white shirts I decided it was time to help myself, and my family, feel good about my skin color or lack thereof. Basically, at the request of my family (and friend Michelle), I have stopped using distinct chemical after-smell tanning lotions and went completely white for one day. Results? Sullen mood, confusion to other white folk and stain free clothing (i.e., no need for Vanish).
Yes, white is beautiful, but for someone who continually stays out of the sun and wears frilly hats when there is some, I depend...no wait, rely on the bottled stuff. Obviously, feeling uncomfortable in pure white skin I decided it was time to explore our fascination with the browning method. Finding subjects to interview was hard. Spanish and Mexican friends, Lidia and Geraldine were automatically
not considered due to their natural olive skin tones, Skinny A also out because she does not realize how white she really is. New mom, Michelle, just had a baby and could care less about the subject and the rest of my clan is strictly Italian. Welcome, my husband, the Heikster, the only white person I know that is currently whiter than me.
Me: What is your tanning philosophy?
Heikster: Face first, no body. I am a
sun chaser (if you know what I mean) sitting in shade is for losers (i.e., my wife). We need natural sunlight to thrive, not your stinky bottled stuff.
Me: But my stinky bottled stuff makes me feel more colorful and confident.
Heikster: Yes, but you are ruining our sheets and the kids say, "Mama smells funny."
Me: Oh.
Heikster: If you would confidently sit outside with me, in the sun, you wouldn't smell up the house with your bottle dependency.
Me: Yes, but with sub-zero temps and angst for solariums (cancer, cancer, cancer) I need to use something for personal color.
Heikster: Your skin. No need for color right now.
Me: So why do you have that face tanning mechanism in my closet?
Heikster: I don't want to burn when skiing.
Me: But you work too much, when do you plan on skiing?
Heikster: (Sinister grin) in March. You're okay with that, right?
Me: Whatever, off topic, be serious.
Heikster: Look, your self tanner (although good...brownie points here b/c of ski trip) is okay, but the natural stuff is more...natural. I realize age is a factor, and you are afraid the sun will increase your wrinkles, but that is why I work so hard, so you can enjoy facials.
Me: Okay, you just said, "increase your wrinkles" so, you're saying I have a lot of them?!? AND when facials no longer work you plan on 'working hard enough' for me to enjoy the effects of Botox? Nice!!!
Heikster: You women are so complicated. No matter what men say you will turn it around and use it against us. All I am saying is that natural sunlight and a little vitamin D can only be good for you, not your manufactured packaged stuff. Besides, sometimes your legs do not match the color of your ankles.
Me: Well unless you plan on investing your cash on the plastic surgery industry you need to either A: enjoy my favorite, leaves a little stain but has no stink, one day
L’Oreal Self Tanner (great product!!) or B: invest stock in Botox practitioners.
Heikster: Being white is all right, even though you look a little more tired. Why are you worrying so much about this topic anyway?
Me: Because I freaked Michelle out with my out of the bottle tanner at her birthday party. All she could say was, 'wow Kim...you are really...tan."
The conversation, albeit longer than the written word, stayed true to point. Women, no matter what we do, will never win. Either we look tired and ghost-like or we smell unnatural and cling to our colorful symbolism within the bottle.
Personally, I prefer the pre 80's no solarium effect where color in some countries meant poor, and no color meant status. Unfortunately, the tan craze of my High School years ruined this ideal for me and forged the colorless (me) into a world of tanning debautury. I would rather deal with a mismatched leg and ankle issue than rely on the burnt hot dog look from the sun or the dangerous rays from the solarium. Thoughts?